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[Mar. 1st, 2008|07:21 pm] |
I'm a worthless piece of shit, and i deserve this pain.
yup. |
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[Feb. 25th, 2008|09:42 pm] |
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| | dallas green.. | ] |
These words might be, too little too late, And I'm afraid that I have already lost you.
Now three months equals eternity and this will be so hard, And I will long to hold you in my arms.. |
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[Nov. 25th, 2007|01:14 pm] |
Move day, i'm pumped!!!
get buck! |
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| a new chapter begins.. |
[Nov. 22nd, 2007|07:53 pm] |
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| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | audition | ] |
Whats been going on in my life..
I'm a keyholder at hot topic now, and I love it! I'm still working at tjmaxx, and i hate it! Having a really fun job, then going to a shitty one sucks.. haha
I'm moving out of my sisters apartment on Sunday, and i'm so hyped! shit nigga, my own place!
Tomorrows black friday, KILL ME! 4:30-7:30.. then i'm going to see the audition with my cousin amber. It's gonna make me cry, you'll be in my head the whole time they play.. sigh
You are a wonderful person, and i'm happy for you.. |
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| 2006 yeah, i still miss you GUTS! |
[Nov. 15th, 2007|07:34 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lydia... smile you've won. | ] |
I was reading my old OLD comments from when we first started dating..
dear swan,
what can i say? we have a lotta damn fun together!!! i'm gonna be awfully sad waking up tomorrow morning with nobody to tickle and kiss and kiss and kiss. you're so good. it's crazy how much fun we have when we let go and stop being stupid about little things. let's face it, we are damn cute together! [no word of a lie]. thank you so so much for the orange gatorade! [you remembered my favorite!]. i really enjoyed having special drinks to sip while doing cute things with my little eskimo. whoooooo's my little eskimoooooooo? take a second and think about everything all the great stuff that happened in just 2 days together! there's no way i can name them all, because there was honestly so many good things, but a few of my favorites were dancing in the car on the way to your house, the big crazy condom fupa, watching the other sister for "family time, " ihop breakfast with everybody, aiden using the big potty, hooking your lip ring to your nose ring, tickle fights, that deisel tackle i gave you, farting in the car and it being too cold to let the smell out, the fat lady at wendy's, the fanny pack boodge bought for goucher, hot sweaty fun underneath the big blanket, how fucking cute your face looked afterwards, our big cookie sundae, and...every single kiss! it was a great two days, and it's going to be so damn hard making it to the next time i can see you. it will be soon, i promise! getting back into the swing of things with college after being on a wonderful month-long vacation with you is going to be so difficult, but fear not, and don't worry your pretty little head [or any of your other pretty parts], i won't forget you. how can i? you're allllll up in my koolaid, and my heart.
i love love love you!!!
<33333333333
love,
puppy
i loved being so in love.. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2007|10:57 pm] |
I gotta be strong, i can't be weak.
I CAN'T give up. |
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| how i'm feeling... |
[Nov. 12th, 2007|03:59 pm] |
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| | cold | ] |
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| | bayside | ] |
the night sky's black and i'm awake lying on the ground.
the grass beneath my feet is hard and cold just like i've come to be.
the stars are gone behind the clouds and i can't see a thing
so i'll just let my eyes stay closed just like me, i can't open up.
cause i'm all wrong and i don't see a chance to fix this head
so just give up. write me off, pretend i don't exist. |
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| I had to do this... i'm sorry. |
[Nov. 12th, 2007|12:06 pm] |
I'm really mad at alot of people right now, it sucks.
If anyone cares, I'm focusing on myself at the moment, i need it.
I have two jobs now! So that's all i've been doing.
I hope my life gets better.. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2007|08:38 pm] |
My horoscope today:
You can tell that there is plenty you still don't know -- the tricky part is figuring out how to learn where to begin learning. Take a stab and see what happens. The worst that can happen is you have to move on.. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2007|11:20 am] |
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| | kanye west, always! | ] |
I don't know anymore.. |
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[Oct. 5th, 2007|06:24 pm] |
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| | cold | ] |
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| | sparks the rescue | ] |
This is fucking gay! Seriously, i hate this. |
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| Draft!!! |
[Sep. 27th, 2007|03:50 pm] |
I wrote this poem, it's kinda gay..
A second chance:
. You learn how to be responsible gradually, you remember people who have helped you come to be.
. You search for answers and only find questions. You have lived through mistakes and learned life's lessons.
. What is the right answer in this case? Nothing seems correct in an unfamiliar place.
. What is in between the lines of right and wrong, how can one recognize the challenges that make a person strong.
. We are left with hate and confusion. Selfishness with devour our love, and leave a false illusion.
. Will you do what you have to in order to advance?
When life generously provides a second chance.
This is how i wrote it on paper. tell me what you think? |
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[Jun. 18th, 2007|02:19 pm] |
vanna on the 23rd.. whos going? |
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[Jun. 15th, 2007|10:31 pm] |
I need everyones numbers. I got a new phone.
k thanks. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2007|11:32 am] |
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| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mae | ] |
Last night was crazy fun! besides a couple thing's...
Stayed the night at Amy and Ryan's house, such an awesome couple. We drank some beers, made some bracelets, and colored. SOOOOOOOOOOOo MUCH FUN!
At the End of the night I got really REALLY sad. They all tried to cheer me up, and we made a box to keep all of my memories of you in. I broke my phone in half, and cried.
This is not an easy healing process..
I did in fact get something i've always wanted.. A SIDEKICK!!! |
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[Jun. 12th, 2007|05:19 pm] |
Tonight is going to be the best night of my life.
enough said. |
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[Jun. 11th, 2007|08:59 pm] |
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| |  hopeful | ] |
I'm getting a new job! Starting off at 11.50 :)
FUCK PANERA!
Goals:
Get over you.
Get my chest finished next week!
save. save. save.
Get a car!
SWEEEEEEEEEEEEET. |
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| I feel like a tool now... |
[Jun. 11th, 2007|10:36 am] |
How can I just "pop" in your head after being with me for TWO YEARS?
I must have sucked pretty bad. sigh. |
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[Jun. 10th, 2007|12:54 pm] |
Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry |
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